blood___shed

Tue, 17 Oct 2006 00:23:38 GMT

I love when people walk out of your life completely with no heads up.

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 21:09:40 GMT

fall came early & i love it.
pumpkin spice lattes are back in starbucks and I couldn't be happier.
maybe thats becuase i'm impatient with the seasons changing.
anyway, it feels weird being in a totally new enviroment
it also feels weird that I have a whole new group of friends.
Yes they understand me & yes they have common intrests but I miss the comfort of knowing who I can call to do certain things.
I also hate the fact that when I look in my phone its everyone's number and I know I can't clal them becuase they're either in class or sleeping.
It sucks but i'm sure we'll all get used to it.
Also Janet & Ray$$ said that next year I'll be able to live on my own
so this basically means BROOKLYN or QUEENS, which ever comes first

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 07:04:01 GMT

I have to say something if I want to sing
But it's not about the words
It's my voice rising
To a place far from me
That my fingers can't reach
And my legs are so tired from all this standing
Standing still

All of my dreams are memories
That I can't place to a time or a face
But my body knows
Of the ribbons and hose
That I once was tied in
In my mother's skin
Before and again.

i feel completely empty.

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 19:29:22 GMT

for a minute there, i lost myself.

my brother owns

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 23:11:50 GMT

i wish i could get boys the way my brother can hahaha

Sat, 17 Jun 2006 19:50:24 GMT

senior year could possibly be the most eventful year of my life.
it seems like every day i'm making more and more memories.
It just sucks that this feeling is only temporary and soon we're all going to have to carry on with our lives and grow up.

its late, i know.

Tue, 30 May 2006 06:30:42 GMT

do you ever get scared that all the promises we make are just fabricated?

Thu, 11 May 2006 21:28:39 GMT

somebody get the sparks, it's about to be a party
fyi senior year could not be going any smoother.

i can safely say

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 22:58:18 GMT

the city never gets old.

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 19:02:57 GMT

oh shit son. I have theeee best brother in the world, hands down

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 19:00:00 GMT

I'd love to learn what life's really about.
All this to me, doesn't seem real and I'm trying to prepare myself for whats to come.
Maturity seems impossible to attain.
I really hope I'm on my way.

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 03:16:03 GMT

i miss laughing til my stomach hurts.

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 02:46:14 GMT

My week went by quickly but there was an unnessecary amount of work.
The only thing I look forward to are my Saturdays.
Saturday:
I absolutely love wandering around the city with Kelsey,Sam,Ryan Ewa.
Ewa is in my fashion class and she's probably the cutest/nicest girl I ever met.
The class looks like alot of fun. The only problem I haveis, we have to make alot of speeches in front of the class. I have a weak stomach and I have terrible speaking skills.
When went up there to make my speech about myslef, the professor told me a I add a good presence to the room. When he said that my day seemed ten times better.
Sunday:
I went out with Carlye, Lauren and Kelsey. We went to Kohl's to look for an outfit for Lauren.
Somehow we ended up at Five Below, where I made the best purchase of my life.
I bought an Ipod Skin with a Kittie on it. I named him Bugles and he's now my kittiepod.
I love it dearly.
Yeah I'm a dork.

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 07:56:01 GMT

on my way back from FIT saturday Sam and I encountered these two strangers who were getting to know each other. The woman was a bubbley cute girl who was full of life and the man had just gotten throught a divorce. Seeing them talk and exchange information about each other probably made my day just a little bit better. It's funny to know that they met on a bus on the way back from the city and that they'll probably have an amazing relationship. Of course I dont know that for sure but i hope that it works out for the best. Although they are complete strangers it seemed they both had such personality and they both complimented each other so well. It was one of the instances where you feel like your sitting their watching a making for a movie right before your eyes.

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 17:58:37 GMT

As of Fall 2006 , I will be attending the Laboratory Institute of Merchandizing!
:) This is probably the happiest I've been since May of last year!

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 00:24:56 GMT

I do believe that yesterday was one of the best days of my senior year.
Running through abadonned hallways is definenyl an increase in adrenaline.
Not to mention being a complete idiot is alot fun.
I made so many friends like zglbocickding and sonshine and the two random boys who faught.
of course i missed saunders but he was there in spirit.

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 02:00:29 GMT

maybe i'll make something of myself,Second time around.

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 02:25:57 GMT

today was way too long.
I miss junior year way too much and I wish I could relive every moment of it.
The month of may must have been the most incredible month. I think I went to Panera everyday that month and I loved every moment of it. I was so amped for the summer and it came with such dissapointment. I think I'll make more of this summer because I'll be losing all my friends until chrsitmas.
It's actually quite exciting to think about.A new place and new people. College seems like such a new experience.

oh and this weekend I better do something exciting.
Make plans with me so we can do something spectactular!!!
♥

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 02:08:41 GMT

i miss those nights when i could pull all nighters and not feel the affects.
i hate having to stay up the unhealthy way by a mixture of caffinated drinks and will power.
All I want is for my grades to not suffer.
Just for once, I want to have fun and not feel guitly.

gaaaaah. i need a back massage

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 02:48:09 GMT

spring please come
and make me warm.
it would be greatly appreciated
:)

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 16:23:56 GMT

Am I the only one super amped for a new year?

My goal is to be less stubborn and hopefully to become more involved in my school work.
It's kind of hard but I'm trying.
Anyway I recently went to Barnes and Nobles and I want the fashion illustration book so I can sketch out some designs I have in mind. In about six months i'm going to be getting ready for college....how sick is that?
Good Moods & Having a blast definitely Kick ass!
Tonight is gunna be sweet and I'm way excited and I hope everyone has a super fun new years.

yumyumyum

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 21:53:37 GMT

bubble tea & pomegranite must make me the happiest person in the world :)

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 01:07:10 GMT

I am definently not anticpating christmas this year. Could it have come have come at any worse of a time? So my feelings towards christmas is bringing down my family and I feel pretty bad but to me , the holidays become more and more disapointing every year.
Not to mention every single store I go to has changed their clothing sizes therefore I am no longer an extra small. It makes me pissed off that we have to accomadate to America's overly obese population thus changing a stupid small to extra small making some stupid fat girl feel better about herself. becuase it sure makes me feel like shit!
hahaha I'm being the biggest grinch ever but i cant help it.

any way aren't you unbearably sad?

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 05:05:34 GMT

lately i've been making more enemies than I have been making friends.

YEAH TEAM

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 21:12:00 GMT

Extreme sledding is much more intense with war paint.
i love my friends and I love my life right now.
♥